A note for my grandma

I need to confess. I may not be my grandma's favourite grandchildren, and I may not have been a good granddaughter to her, but i seriously appreciate her for being my grandma all this while. She will always leave in my heart no matter what.

If I have a choice I would like to beg the god to not take her away. Cox i Still need a second chance to treat her better. I still have lots more places that I want to drive her to to enjoy the food. I would still love to get her her favourite Mcd and KFC for her lunch. When she is bored I hope I could have the chance to bring her to the nearby place to hav a cup of tea and let her enjoy her favourite bread toast. And her fav food and drinks that we bought for her are still laying in the fridge, she haven even hav the chance to finish it.

Thinking back, there are times that I yelled and her n get frustrated. I regret of not being patient to her. I should be more polite to her. I should talk to her more. I Wouldnt forget the time when I had went through with her during her depression period. See ing her being so pessimistic at that period reli hurts me. The best memories of me bout my grandma is during my childhood. I miss the days that all of us got excited when she lead us to the mall and buy us the fastfood that she loves. I like it when she sides us when our parents were scolding us.

But what could I do now besides regretting and reaclling back the past. In future, I will not be able to call "POPO" anymore. I have no one to side me when i get scolding from parents. I have no one to cook me good food anymore. I couldnt see you anymore when i go back to hometown. Where will u be when we will have our reunion dinner in the future chinese new years. There are just so so so much about u in my life. I refused to accept the fact, but knowing that U would be at a better place now, I also choose to move on with my life and get over the melancholic.

I knew you would be at a better place now. Leaving the pain and suffering that u would have faced in this world would be better for a happy u. You may not have enjoy all the best moment and things in life, but I think u will be glad enough to go through what u had before. And knowing that u have all these bunch of kids and grandchildren around, you had lead urself a remarkable life. And we will never forget you no matter when. And grandpa, pls not worry bout him, all of us willl take good care of him.

Grandma, May u rest in peace. The light that U see will lead u to a better world.

This is the only pic i had with my grandma. It was taken not long ago during my 19th birthday.